So… it happened… I cheated. Kinda bad.
I feel lousy about it.
Can I explain?
So, I woke up this morning at 9 for a workout session at 9:45. It was really hard. I sweat a lot. (This is me making excuses)
I had a half of a salad for lunch with some rotisserie chicken in it. 6 points.
Then I had 2 graham crackers with my black coffee.
5 points.
Then before I left for our show tonight (which was a full band- high energy show), I had 2 pieces of fat free deli turkey with one piece of pepper jack cheese. 3 points.
I got to our show downtown, we did sound check and I figured “I have 12 points left… I’ll have some blue light”.
I drank one… jumped around on stage for 40 minutes, hung out with friends and family after the show and had 2 more beers. 10 points.
Good-bye inhibitions.
All 12 of us friends went next door to a bar with delicious food. Matt and I shared another beer with a caprese sandwich with waffle fries 🤦🏻♀️
Yup, it was delicious. I ate half and loved every bite.
But I was also thinking “is this worth it?” With every bite.
I had beer and I was on an adrenaline high and just wanted to eat and have fun.
I regret it. I was well over my points for today.
But now I move on. Tomorrow’s a new day.
In a way, I’m glad this happened. I didn’t anticipate myself going through 6 months of this without fucking up at least a couple of times.
My stomach won’t forgive me, but hopefully I can forgive myself. We all do it. We just
Move.
On.
Here’s to a healthy tomorrow! 💪
Thanks for sticking with me. Yes, this is hard. It’s real. We’re all human. It happens. It’s how we deal with it and move on that matters.
Good night, friends ♥️
